Friday, May 20, 2011

Where are all the thick chicks?

So what happened to all the "proud to be thick" and "regular girls are over a size 10" advocates. It seems like everyone is jumping on the thin train... They're saying they're getting healthy but I know the truth just like they do; They went to the Gap and only saw size 8 and S/M, and realized they needed to lose a few, just like the rest of us. It is what it is. I recently went to Vegas and went crazy, working out 5 days a week just to reach a size 14. I was pissed. I mean I had just went from 247lbs to 219lbs but I figured now that I'm actually doing something the weight doesn't want to budge. I thought I looked great in Vegas but when I came home and put on some size 14 stretch jeans and they were struggling to button up, I too said to hell with this, I need to something about this. But then me and my bf went to Brooklyn for the weekend and I started eating and "embrassed" my curves and thickness, and he thought I was sexy as ever.

So I turned my tv on and opened up a magazine. I saw Perez Hilton, Raven Symone, Jordin Sparks and even Mo'Nique and they were all not on my train anymore. I mean damn if they're "getting healthy" maybe I need to as well. And honestly since I came back from vaca, I'm feeling kind of heavy. I maintained a good chunk of my weight loss (that's going off of my clothes not a scale) but I'm starting to feel heavy. When I was working out for Vegas I could feel a difference, I felt lighter. So now I'm like "C, u gotta get it together". I still work out but I've been lacking my zest. So to jump start I decided I'm going to do the maser cleanse

Now I know that's the cheat way, and the do it quick way, but I'm not solely doing it to lose weight. My main reason is to help myself start and maintain healthy eating habits. I have been eating some crap and I wanna get back on track, but on a permanent basis. I started today and I'm not hungry, just greedy. I'm trying to stay focused and busy because I feel like this is going to be a long 10 days. I googled some before and after pics and it seems like people really shed weight and the feelings people describe post cleanse seem really satisfying, I want one too Mommy! LOL..... I think the hardest part for me is getting dinner ready for the kids, also the semester recently ended and I'm waiting for summer to start, so It's like I'm home and I'm waiting, just waiting with nothing to do. I feel like this would of been easier when I'm in school because, then, I don't even have enough hours in a day. But I'm doing it and I hope to stay focused.

I have, what I know alot of females have, a book with magazine clippings, kinda my wish list. But I have some summer outfits and recipes that I'm dying to try. Most are healthy recipes that provide some options to unhealthy and greasy foods. So looking through my book helps me keep my eye on the prize.

P.S. Leave comments, questions, and I will try my best to answer. Also relationship questions are my favorite. As my friends call with their "problems" I'll post it and my reply...

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